The Art of Walking

I don't think I have ever written about this on my blog, but I love the outdoors. I've been cooped up for the past few days recovering from surgery, and tonight I was near campus outside waiting for my dinner date, enjoying the cold crisp air after class. Just being outside for that short bit lifted my spirits.
I like to think about where I'm going to explore next? When can I go? How much time can I take? I work and go to school, so I am very limited in my actual getting-away, but I have many days where I "urban-hike." Last week, for example, I walked from Albina and Interstate (the yellow line max stop) and to home. I stopped there after class intentionally so I could get the chance to see a different stretch of a neighborhood I so often just pass through. When I got home I want to see how far it was from point A to B so I Googled it. Google said it was about 2.6 miles. Which isn't that far. But considering the extra walking I did around campus and at work, it adds up. (And it is certainly more the average American.)
On my urban outing, I stopped in at The Rebuilding Center just for fun, didn't see anything I couldn't live without and decided to grab some food at Mississippi Pizza before heading the rest of the way home. All in all I probably walked more than 4 miles this particular day. I walk a lot, often because I don't own a car, but often I prefer the pace of walking. Cars often seem claustrophobic, and if I'm on the bus during rush hour, walking is often the better choice for peace and quiet.
There is so much to see in the Northwest that gets absorbed much better when I take the time to hike around. The urban trails I've made and committed to memory make life that much more satisfying. It isn't about the gear that gets packed or the weight I eliminated off my shoulders, it is about the journey. A walk seems to put things into perspective. It isn't technical or stressful. Most days it is the most satisfying thing I do.
I read other people's blogs that are backpackers and ultralighter's, and I am a bit of a gear-nut myself I admit. I like to go to REI and visit all the websites that obsess about backpacking gear. I am often reminded that this is just how adults get to be kids again. The big difference between the times I spent outdoors as a kid and the hiking trips I do nowadays has to do with planning and price-tags. I had gear when I was a kid. I had so much gear and camouflage one of the neighbors in my old neighborhood, a Vietnam-vet, said "We didn't even have that much stuff when we were fighting in the jungle." So, now that I'm an adult, and the prospect of playing in the woods is somewhere in the near future, I get to be that kid again. Although I'd love to have some of my camouflage gear back. -R

Letting go

Two monks were returning to the monastery in the evening. It had rained and there were puddles of water on the road sides. At one place a beautiful young woman was standing unable to walk accross because of a puddle of water. The elder of the two monks went up to a her lifted her in his alms and left her on the other side of the road, and continued his way to the monastery.
In the evening the younger monk came to the elder monk and said, "Sir, as monks, we cannot touch a woman ?"
The elder monk answered "yes, brother".
Then the younger monk asks again, " but then Sir, how is that you lifted that woman on the roadside ?"
The elder monk smiled at him and told him " I left her on the other side of the road, but you are still carrying her "

-From Zen Flesh Zen Bones

New Years' are about letting go of what happened last year. I like to burn some of the things that I need to rid myself of. It is a good ritual. It helps the mind let go of a physical thing. Up up and away, I offer my past to the fire. It gives me smoke and new hope.

I am a fan of lists. I stumbled on this one the other night. It is an interesting list. I would be impressed if a person of any gender could do 15 of these things.
http://www.esquire.com/features/essential-skills-0508

Regrets

Woman with no regrets?
Haven't met her yet.

Does she shine different in the sun?
Does she shimmer?
Is she iridescent?
It that how we would know her from all the others?

Is her to do list filled with simple tasks?
Does it read: Wake, breathe, sleep?

http://www.washingtonpost.com/wp-dyn/content/article/2009/08/06/AR2009080603039.html

Ugh.

untitled

The fusion of busted riders

sends me to solitude of garden soliloquy 

hidden harmony orchestra

trumpets of crickets

diving into water movement undulations

escaping the infinite living moment

where nothing hurts but the thorns of an artichoke

and nothing scorns but a running hose

Two year old poem get's new life

Family's naive fodder follows my every which way.

I maze through

life

Etched in me

are

mistakes

patterns

rituals

rites.

Around the fire we sit

watching embers dance

the smoke and ash

reveal the past.

The fire leaves us with visions

and more family lore.

What should have been on the radio that day

I absolutely love this song. It feels like a shared experience. It feels like when you are in the car after you grandmother has died, and only you and your sibling understand the meaning of this moment and how it will live -- embedded in your grey matter for the rest of your life. This song feels something like that.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=V9KrotLtC-Y

It makes you wonder...

In the night

When your body is cold

And you look at your history

Sitting on the laptop

Quite awake

And drunk

Who should you blame?

The lover who sucks at it

Or the mute that never says so?

I'm trying to communicate with you

This is for the people that are leaving posts. I am not smart enough to understand them.

グ リ ー を も dominates す る meets い サ イ ト[ス タ ー ビ ー チ]! Th を is all the rage し like と し て the posture を to disappear suddenly し た サ イ ト が now Soviet る! The love 経 験 が does not have い Fang でも Jan 単に to leave meets え る の が works as サ イ ト! ぜ ひ ご applies flexibly く だ さ い

The cold is near

I want to dip my hands in a barrel full of scratchy wool socks.

I will pluck out a pair of discounted misshapen army-regulated green stockings. They will go over the meaty part of my calf. They will cut off the circulation and keep my legs below the knees warm as I stand in the coldness waiting for everything and anything.

Sac

It was 1997 and I was in love with the freedom of living out loud. I had a job delivering copies and I drove all around the Sacramento area delivering goods. I experienced traffic like never before. Driving became a sport.

I had received an electric guitar as a birthday gift and I worshiped Stevie Ray Vaughn. His songs and techniques were all I could hear. I snuck into Old Town bars to here blues bands play and occasionally they would cover one of his tunes. In my delivery van I kept cassette tapes of SRV to learn his phrasing.

After I worked all day I would venture out into the city. The night was full of opportunity and the sky full of stars. I sat on the hood of my car atop one of the parking garages and watched fireworks light up the riverfront during Pioneer Days. The cool river wind blew at my face.

In the tunnel that stretched from Old Town to the Downtown Plaza mosaic art moved us along.

The farmer's market appealed to all the senses.

I was young and my pores were open to all that was this time.

I can still feel it.

I would go to the river front in twilight hours and catch glimpses of river otters hunting for food.

Even in the city I would look for hiding places where I could find nature. In capital park I climbed a tree and sat looking down at tourists.

I always wanted to be observing. I just wanted to be still.

The adventures are fun, but being -- just simply being, is the great challenge.

Create.

I haven't written on my dear blog in awhile. I decided to share some of the ramblings from my writing class journal:

"How would you describe the carpet? It is green and blue Berber.

Or you can say...

The carpet winds across the room; shattering the white of wall paint. It meets the chair legs and shows some classy reservation by not taking hold."

How would you describe the act of clipping your finger nails? They were long so I snipped them.

Or...

An inch would be too gross. They start to measure a 1/4 maybe and I start to feel uncomfortable. They get crooked, yellowed, and dirty. It is hard to play guitar. They snag on my sweater. When I splay them on the ground, I bid farewell to some more of my DNA."